Already Gone

all it took was one little message you shared
it was probably an afterthought, you never did really care.

i didn't think it would sting so much if your name ever popped up in my phone,
but its like a slap to the face each time & a drug i can no longer condone.

you lied, you played with my head, and said we could be so much more
then i'd find myself alone, just staring at the door...
just wishing maybe one day you'd be there.
bring a bottle of wine, some roses, and tell me it wasn't fair.

you'd do everything i'd ever dreamed of...
just you & me.
maybe we'd be so happy, we'd think of it as destiny.

but unfortuneatly this was all just a dream.
a constant reminder that i wasn't part of your master scheme.

you didn't want me there after all...
you clearly were pretending this whole time while you watched me fall.

so as soon as i hear from you almost one year later,
im no longer charading around ready to cater.
it reminds me that i can trust nobody but myself.
and i sure as hell can't go back to the dark place you left me,
please put me back on the shelf.

im no longer an option.

ive finally moved on.

please leave me alone,
please allow me to think you're already gone.

Xoxo,

Carlene