I'll Admit It

I miss you. There, I said it.
There have been many moments I wish my brain would just forget it.

Forget the idea that you & I could work...
Forget the idea that maybe you weren't just another jerk.

Thinking of You...

I'm thinking of you at the end of another restless day...
Thinking of how well we could have been together & what scared you away.

It felt too right, it felt too good...
But you freaked out prematurely before we both understood...

A Hard Life Lesson.

"Sleep when you die" I used to say,
They wouldn't care enough about me anyway.

It's funny how many people over a lifetime you'll meet.
They will laugh with you, cry with you, and won't hesitate to take a seat...

Time Tells All

It's a known fact that time tells all. This is a lesson that was so hard for me to believe, and ultimately learn.

Over time, things become so much clearer. You open your mind up to new ideas (hopefully). You allow yourself to think more creatively. You realize how short life can be, and over time, you realize that actions speak louder than words.

I Think I'm Falling For You...

I wanted to share another one of my favorite songs with y'all: "Fallin' For You" by Colbie Caillat. It started playing today and I remembered how much I love it: Its so simple. It brings that nostalgic feeling of when you are falling for someone a little *too* fast back -- the butterflies, the good anxiety, the smile you have on your face when you think of them...

6 Feet Below

I put on makeup to hide the pain.
It would all come off if I danced in the rain.

But I would never allow myself so much fun...
As soon as you slip, that's when you're done.

Deep down inside I think I know who I am.
But what if it ends up being a sham?

We Could Never Be.

Is it really good enough for you to call me then?
Is it really good enough for you to have left her way back when?
Is it really good enough for me to be ready for love?
Is it really good enough for you to wish you could rise above?

We will never be good enough for eachother I've decided.
But if we tried it out we might not be so undivided.

Thoughts From Within

This is extremely vulnerable for me, but I am going to be sharing some of my poems with y'all.
My close friends have seen a few of them, but I have never really shared them with anyone else.
I'm hoping it will be a good healing process for me to share with perfect strangers.

Take them for what you want. Just keep in mind before you criticize, I'm sharing for me, not you.

Thank you in advance :-)

Xoxo, Carlene

If You Let Me Have A Taste...

I had an urge to share one of my favorite songs today. "Wanted" by Pepper has taken me through thick & thin. I've blared this on the freeway crying my eyes out after being blown off by the one person I wanted to hang out with...I've played this with the sun beating down on my skin with a smile on my face... and every moment in between. 

A Little Advice I Was Given...

Today I was pretty down regarding the idea of relationships, where the ones I currently have will take me, and my overall future with men. Today, I also spoke to my good friend Colin, who reminded me why I always go to him for advice in the first place. He gave me the simplest of advice, and I wanted to share it.  He said: